New Year's Day The setting if the sun, The closing of an eye, Dreams are born. Wishes, goals, A prayer for guidance is wispered before the morn. "Better people we will be" So they say, But all I hear is quite on New Year's Day.
The day anew. Light beams down, Down to Mother Earth. A new begining, A change for the better. We'll take this new child, our rebirth. "We'll look better, feel better, do better this way." If it were only that easy On New Year's Day.
Hopes of peace shattered. Dreams of love lost. Promises for the better, broken. The sick who remain sick, The old who remain forgotten, The children who go on hungry, Have silently spoken. This is what they say.. "I don't want to die.." "On New Year's Day."
The closing of one chapter of life, The opening of another. Death of the old, Rebirth to the new. Yet on this day, People kill in war And die alone Or by their own hand. Is this not true? All is not well today, Today..On New Year's Day.
Love lost to the fool, The loss of compassion, Is this who I am today? No new chances, No more tries, No rebirth, except of what I was yesterday.
For nothing changes On New Year's Day |
Sister Darkness The flood of night touches my soul, Oh upon me lies this everlasting ache. I reach across to touch her, Only to find she is not there. Rain falls down on me, The tears of my soul, Again barren, deserted, lost. Oh hold me, clutch me to your gentle heart. Nourish me, wrap me in your ever night. You who have always loved me. You who where always there.
Shattering glass upon memories of nevermore, But what once was, remains. Curse me with your tainted lust and still you say You are only for me? Take me from this, take me away. Guide me to the land of dreams and shadows Where you have always cared for me. Take her taint from me, caress my falling light. You who have always been true. You who have always accepted me.
Lift me high to the land I have never tread upon but have always known, Guide me back to the light. Take her touch from me. Hold me with your loving embrace. Dance with me on the ocean of shadows. Take me in your hand and gaze into my eyes, Save me with your love from what I have become, You who have always loved me.
My Sister Darkness |
Hope Oh so few, For who would stand it? Anger. Like a banshee, Screaming through the wind, Cursing you and your dreams, Who would stand it? If not you than who? Perhaps I?
No, not I
Oh so little, How will we survive? Fear Like a thief, Silent as the night, Stealing your money and your wife, Who would fight it? If not you than who? Perhaps I?
No, not I
Oh so small, How will we face it? Opression. Like a giant upon a mountain, Blocking your way and your sight. Who will knock it down? If not you than who? Perhaps I?
No, not I
So all is lost? What happens now? Nothing. Like the void of nothing. Too late to fill the gap. Might as well quit. Who will quit? If not you than who? Perhaps I? I made that mistake already. Now I must look myself in the eye. I must make up for what I have done. For all I have done is nothing, And Nothing is all I have. So who will quit? Perhaps I?
No, not I |
Cold heart not so Love, Such a beautiful concept. So pure in it's simplicity, Yet so bewildering in it's form. My heart once pounded as yours does now, Pacing the tempo of the body, Racing with the thoughts of emotion. And my emotions guided me into blindness. How eagerly I followed. Tasting the the lust inside me. So long ago, Only a dream of a momery now. Yet on the quiet windy nights, I feel it rise up in me, Like a black viper. Something I wish I did not want, But want nevertheless. Love. How much I long for it, Yet it's only manifestations Are a grotesque mutation of what it was, In its true, simple form. What I would give for a single moment, To feel that truest form. Now? I have lost my faith. My faith in people, My faith in the human heart. Curse them. Lonliness. Bitterness. My rage pushing me into the shadows, Into the depths of my soul. Yet still so willing to give. I see you. I watch you, as you bicker like children. Tearing at each others throats, Ever trying to gain the upper hand on the other. And you claim to be in love. How dare you. How dare you claim such destruction in the name of love. And you hunger for the flesh, even steal it from others. Talk them into it. How dare you. How dare you destroy that sacred trust. People no longer understand. People don't even try. Instead they throw themselves in to the arms of lust and ignorance. Curse you, those who stole love away from the world. Sitting alone in my beloved darkness, How can I not love? In my dark heart burns a flame brighter than any star, Aching for release. So true is it that I can reach into you and feel your heart. So pure is it that I am afraid. Yes I do love you, all of you. For you do not love yourselves enough. And I dare not meld my heart with another. No one has ever given me a reason to. The Gods save you from a heart such as mine, For your only companions are lonliness and the grief of others. Oh for love, Love for Love's sake. |